Seriously... it was easy at first but it seems to just be getting hrader.
The thing that bugs me most, is walking by this person I've shared everything with for the past 6 months, and not saying a thing. It's as if this person means nothing more to me than anyone else walking the hallways, but that's not true.
Mind you I can't talk to him, because I'd have nothing to say. I'd probably want to give him a hug and just go back to the way things were.
But things weren't great. To where would I go back? There isn't a perfect time, obviously there were ups and downs.
So the more I think about it, there are so many things I hated about us and the way we were.
There's tons of things I'd want to change about him, but I know that you have to take people for who they are and not change them, that's why it could never work again.
But seriously, too often I flashback and think "ah, I was well then".
I might just be missing the fact of having someone there, at the end of the day, someone to call, something to do, etc.
I hope that's all it is, because that gets fixed with time (plus I can find someone else ;) ) But what if it's him I miss?
I am definitly unstable, and unable to even talk to him. Hurray for the internet, I've been able to let him know that I'm like this.
But what the hell am I supposed to do when we look at each other?! I turn away but seriously, I feel soooo immature.
I just can't imagine that someone I was so close to could just fade away from my life.
Dashboard Confessional- Standard Lines
Which of the bold faced lies will we use? I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it This'll be best for us both in the end
But your taste still lingers on my lips Like I just placed them upon yours and I starve, I starve for you But this new diet's liquid and dulling to the senses and it's crude, but it will do
So which of the standard lines will we use? I've been meaning to call you I've just been so busy We'll catch up soon Let's make it a point to
But it will do, I hope it will do