But heck, it's all good.
Stuff with Vince is well. I'm starting to realise how lucky I am to have him/how much I need him. We SO contradict each other on every single thing in the world, but that's why we get along so well. That's what makes it fun too!
So yeah, I guess things have been moving smoothly, we aren't stuck in a rut or nothing.
Other than random outbreaks of me being unable to take his views on the world, stuff is good :)
When we're together it's awesome, it's just when I'm not with him and I have too much time to over analyse every single possible situation. Yes, that's me.
BUT yes there's always a but whenever Adam's in the picture it'S as if I'd be willing to drop everything I've got for *anything* with him. But no. I don't think I do. It's just that I know I still have crazy feelings for him and I'm not sure if it's stuff I'll ever be able to get over, you know? So what, should I just eliminate him from my surroundings till I am? I think not. Might as well face him now. But still, I think I should tell him I'm seing someone. Because who knows, he's hard to read, and either he doesn't have/has never had any intentions of us being more, or he thinks about it, a lot. It could be either way, but probably the first. But no matter what, he's a friend, he should know!
I guess I'm just trying to keep it "open", like if something goes wrong, in fear of not having someone... oh I don't know.
Anyways, so yeah, I think I've got to work on that.
**Updated later in the evening
Garg, just spent a night going through Adam's poems with him and talking about them and what I like and don't... it was really cool, I really really enjoy his writings.
Man he's such a great friend, he's so great, but it just sucks to have these thoughts in the back of my mind. I mean, I'm not even sure that if the opportunity of us getting together came up, I don't think I'd take it.
I wanna really know him for him and not have to screw anything up by dating and risking it messing up.