Thursday, Mar. 18, 2004
give me a breather

URgggggg he starts arguments just for the sake of arguing!

Like what the hell!

Fuck and i think he thinks I'm retarded... he ALWAYS states the obvious, exaclty like my mom always does, and hell I'm a big girl leave me the fuck alone.

Don't do this, watch out for this, I KNOWWWWW.

Look at me, do I look stupid?

I feel a lack of independance... a relationship to me is seeming like a need for lonely insecure people to get attached.

I don't need that, I can stand up all by myself.

I long to just do my own thing and as a bonus have someone, not loose me and be with someone.

Maybe I'm just scared of getting hurt, cos if I get too close I'll be dependant and I'm more likely to get hurt?

But I don't wanna give it my all, because bottom line is I'm still me and I can't lose that.

This was a random blurting of thoughts, at the end of this birthday of mine..

I had a good birthday. I did indeed.

Oh, and I just learnt that next week, I work monday 7-10 tuesday 5-10 wednesday 5-10. Helloooo?? I DO have to go to school and do homework and um sometimes sleep... What the hell? And other people have 1 shift! I'm confuzzled...

last . next



last five:
- - Monday, Mar. 28, 2005
god said to kat - Sunday, Feb. 13, 2005
a glimmer of something - Saturday, Feb. 05, 2005
anyone care to help me with rebound? - Wednesday, Feb. 02, 2005
quiz into me - Tuesday, Feb. 01, 2005