I feel like a bitch in the middle here...
Kat got to read me and Adam’s msn convo, and we talked during the whole lunch today. Oh, and I have a beef (eww beef): why is it that I need to *plan specifically* when to talk to her, as in we don’t have anytime at all do just have girl talk... I’m glad she’s there though, I really need her right now. She made me see some sides I hadn’t seen. Oh, and I’ll send it to Ben tonight too, he could be a lotta help right now.
Basicly, in conclusion from our convo, Adam’s leaving Thursday for a bit so I’ll have more time to spend with Vince and figure that whole things out. Plus, I’ll have a better “outsider” view of what’s up with Adam. Hopefully when he gets back we’ll be able to talk about stuff and I’ll understand what’s going on?
I really just need to figure out my feelings for Vince right now. I’m not sure about what we are, nor where we’re going, so a little clarity in that field would be great. Adam is a whole different story: I have to figure out if everything he’s said is on friendship terms or on more.
I still can’t get over the adorable paragraph he said after we got home Sunday night...
OMG and when he said “You’ll always be my Konstantine” Like holy crap, I’m still overwhelmed he said that. That line especially is what is making me so confused about his point of view right now...it’s so powerful, there’s no way to describe it. (Konstantine is an amazing fucking song, the best in the world, and for him to say that to me is one of the most touching things someone has ever said to me.)
Just, the things he said Sunday night were amazing... I’m not sure what his intentions were.
But man o man am I ever glad to have a guy like that in my life.
Later days