But, I basicly have that right now, and it's as if I'm lazing out of it... for example, Friday night Vince was like "Call me after your interview to let me know how it went!!" and I was like "Yeah!" but I never did and I have yet to call him tonight (I swear I will, but who knows when).
I'm being so stupid, I tend to get lazy quickly. I'm just not sure if I even want to work on this. I don't know, we'll see how things develop...
But I was thinking about that today, and how when I see people's girlfriends or boyfriends, I judge them/see a part of their personality thru the person they are with. So, what would people think when I'm with Vincent? Nothing bad, that'S not what I'm trying to sya, I just wonder what it would tell people about me.
Who knows.
Now let's shower, I'm tired, 7 hours at Bluenotes today, listening to Sunshine saying how she doesn't like Matt and vice-versa. Oh, that and the hugest pile of shit at the changerooms that I tried to clean with matt for almost 2 hours but was still huge when I left!
You know what I like about me and Vincent? Is that we have good "initimacy". Let me explain. LIke, if we're alone together, I'm not afraid things will be akward, that we won't have anything to talk about, or nothing of the sort. And I feel that often with even close friends. lol so thank god not with boyfriend, but I mean usually when I like someone, if ever we're alone together I totally freak and have no idea what to say/how to act!
Maybe that's why I'm having such doubts? Cos I've never known the good stuff? Dunno.. it's odd man.